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red_b_rackhamOK. I WAS FREAKING OUT BEFORE. NOW I'M REALLY, REALLY, REALLY FREAKING THE HECK OUT.
So remember like, back in July, when I was all like waffling on quitting and sort of talked myself out of it and stuff? Guys, guys, guys. Can I just say, I really probably should've and saved this for next year, because I just do. not. have. time.
The good news is I have like 53k written, and the fic is technically complete (I know, PARTY, right?). Also good news is that I employed a second beta while my first went on holidays, and holy crap. Dudes, she is SO awesome and put so much work into my fic, editing and commenting and pointing out things I hadn't even thought of but seemed SO obvious hindsight. She was awesomely honest, and offered all kinds of suggestions.
The BAD news is this: the fic is due Sunday. And I basically need to overhaul the fic, h-core. While writing, I felt like I was forcing stuff, forcing characters and tension and romance, and everything was just getting crappy. But, I was doing my "No Looking Back" thing, so I wasn't about to go back and edit, even though I was really not happy with what I was writing. I was hoping that I was just being perfectionist and insecure about the whole thing, but it turns out my gut instinct was right and it's not good. UGH. I KNEW IT.
Back to good news: I have completed and uploaded three out of four sets of art. I'm still waiting to hear back from one of the authors on a possible title, but I'm not worried until it's like you know, 11 pm on Sunday, and then I guess it'll just go up without a title (it'll take me like all of ten minutes to add a title and upload the art to AO3). Also, I may have to whip up a third piece for one of the authors since one of the snippets I art'd may not be making it into the fic after all, but again, not worried.
No, I'm busy having a minor freak out about my fic. I just have to bite the bullet and tackle and wrangle it into submission, but I fear I just don't have enough hours before the deadline (and this excluding a few hours tomorrow night where I have plans with friends, and most of Sunday where I'm family-ing) to make this fic palatable. I need to reiterate that I am ridiculously thankful for my two beta's and thier edits, but at the moment I'm just feeling so overwhelmed when I look at them all, that I'm pretty much like this:
BUT. *gets resolve face on* I do not have to work tomorrow, which means I have the whole day 'till friends in the evening. And I should have all day Saturday. And, whatever, like I haven't done it before, I HAVE ALL NIGHT (tonight and Friday and Saturday). SO. I WILL DO THIS. I MUST. I WILL. I WILL.
I hope.
Somday, I will learn my lesson about procrastionation.
Hobey ho, let's go.
~Red
So remember like, back in July, when I was all like waffling on quitting and sort of talked myself out of it and stuff? Guys, guys, guys. Can I just say, I really probably should've and saved this for next year, because I just do. not. have. time.
The good news is I have like 53k written, and the fic is technically complete (I know, PARTY, right?). Also good news is that I employed a second beta while my first went on holidays, and holy crap. Dudes, she is SO awesome and put so much work into my fic, editing and commenting and pointing out things I hadn't even thought of but seemed SO obvious hindsight. She was awesomely honest, and offered all kinds of suggestions.
The BAD news is this: the fic is due Sunday. And I basically need to overhaul the fic, h-core. While writing, I felt like I was forcing stuff, forcing characters and tension and romance, and everything was just getting crappy. But, I was doing my "No Looking Back" thing, so I wasn't about to go back and edit, even though I was really not happy with what I was writing. I was hoping that I was just being perfectionist and insecure about the whole thing, but it turns out my gut instinct was right and it's not good. UGH. I KNEW IT.
Back to good news: I have completed and uploaded three out of four sets of art. I'm still waiting to hear back from one of the authors on a possible title, but I'm not worried until it's like you know, 11 pm on Sunday, and then I guess it'll just go up without a title (it'll take me like all of ten minutes to add a title and upload the art to AO3). Also, I may have to whip up a third piece for one of the authors since one of the snippets I art'd may not be making it into the fic after all, but again, not worried.
No, I'm busy having a minor freak out about my fic. I just have to bite the bullet and tackle and wrangle it into submission, but I fear I just don't have enough hours before the deadline (and this excluding a few hours tomorrow night where I have plans with friends, and most of Sunday where I'm family-ing) to make this fic palatable. I need to reiterate that I am ridiculously thankful for my two beta's and thier edits, but at the moment I'm just feeling so overwhelmed when I look at them all, that I'm pretty much like this:
BUT. *gets resolve face on* I do not have to work tomorrow, which means I have the whole day 'till friends in the evening. And I should have all day Saturday. And, whatever, like I haven't done it before, I HAVE ALL NIGHT (tonight and Friday and Saturday). SO. I WILL DO THIS. I MUST. I WILL. I WILL.
I hope.
Somday, I will learn my lesson about procrastionation.
Hobey ho, let's go.
~Red
